I am 40 years old, married. I live in a depressing village, where besides drinking and entertainment is almost nonexistent.
We were invited to a holiday in the countryside with shashlyk. The company introduced us to Emilia, our friend’s sister. The girl was very beautiful. Initially I didn’t pay much attention to her, I paid attention to my wife and just drank, as always.
Time passed, I went to social networking to look at photos from the holidays, and saw her in a group photo. She was standing next to me and smiling at ease. That smile, her lips, her eyes, her hair… I thought she was perfect. I just fell in love, like lightning struck me. That long-forgotten feeling flashed through me again. I longed for her.
On social media, she was easily added as a friend. I looked at her picture every night for a long time and admired it. After a month she got married status. And there comes a time when you begin to realize that we will never be together! She is 10 years younger than me, lives in the city, her husband must be caring. And after events like that, it really hurt me. I waspovedi.com myself to blame myself for such thoughtlessness and tried to forget her. But every night I looked at her photos again, promising myself that this was the last time.
I couldn’t decide to write to her, in case she wanted to talk to me. And today I plucked up courage and wrote to communicate in a chat room sometimes. To which I got the answer that she can not communicate, family, worries and all that. So delicately turned me down.
Here I am writing and feel relieved. Whether from the fact that you poured out the soul, or that there is no hope.
