I married for love four years ago. I admit, it was a hasty marriage, we hadn’t even met for six months, and the fact that I didn’t know him very well was detrimental to me. Now we’ve been married for four years, our daughter is three, and my husband is a werewolf.
He’s a normal man in the daylight when he’s sober, but when he has a few drinks in the evening, he’s possessed by a demon. He does things that are horrible, the neighbors know, everyone has seen the worst things he has done. He would go into other people’s houses and break furniture and equipment, break down the doors of people we were close to. He insulted his own friends, molested their wives, all after a couple of beers. No, he doesn’t get drunk to the very last stage, he’s quite aware of what he’s doing!
But there are worse things – when he gets drunk, he hits me. Sometimes he hits me so hard I can’t get up. He’s been arrested and fined more than once, he’s been treated more than once, but all in vain. And all of this our daughter sees! One day I woke up in the middle of the night and saw him waking up the baby and shoving scissors in her hands and telling her to cut my hair off! So he says, “mommy is bad, she doesn’t need her hair.” Lately, “mommy is bad” has been popping up in my daughter’s mouth, too.
I’m afraid of every step he takes. I’m afraid to go to sleep because I know I might not wake up. I’m afraid for my baby. And you say run away from him, but I have nowhere to go. Not at all. I’m hated by his family for filing police reports on him, my poor son. They threaten me that if I leave, they will find me and take my child away, and my husband says he won’t let me live at all! And I am from an orphanage, I have no family, no friends, no one, not a living soul. To leave, even to run away, I need money, which I don’t have.
I have no idea what to do. Every day I begin with gratitude that we survived the night. I believe in a miracle, there is nothing else to believe in. I am not a bad person, but I sincerely wish my husband a painful death, and fast.
