My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 months. He is 4 years older than me (I am 18 years old). This is the first relationship for me, but I’m not the first girl in his life. And it didn’t bother me in any way until one beautiful evening.
We were lying in our arms, watching a movie, and he called me the name of his ex-girlfriend. That night I didn’t pay attention to it, it didn’t bother me at all. But the next day something terrible started happening. I remembered that moment so many times, and then I started bugging my boyfriend about it. I asked him why he did it, and asked other similar questions. He assured me that he didn’t know how it happened and that he didn’t mean to do it (he also said that it could have been because this girl was a very close person to him). Now I keep thinking that he hasn’t gotten over her, that the feelings are still there.
Also at the beginning of our communication he remembered this girl twice, how he bought her underwear and stockings, and how they met, but for me it was not something scary (and in general I never wanted to check something, look for something extra). But after this incident I keep thinking about how he slept with her, socialized, etc., I already start thinking about his other girlfriends, it’s just awful, I start hating myself.
I also have a desire to question the guy once and for all about this girl, I want to know how long their relationship lasted, how they broke up. I don’t think it’s quite right, but I don’t know how to calm down. He also said that he didn’t communicate with anyone as well and easily as he did with me.
My boyfriend is caring, gentle, kind, but this budding jealousy of the past is keeping me down. I’m scared of what will happen next.
