I am 30 years old. I struggle with panic attacks, ADD, and other neurotic stuff. And I realized that it’s all from resentment, I think, from the fact that since childhood I was unfair to me.
It all started in kindergarten. The whole group was given one Revit vitamin each. But one boy didn’t get a vitamin and the teacher told me to take mine and give half to him. A drooling vitamin! I don’t understand why out of 20 people I had to give him my vitamin, I hate that teacher to this day. She was about 45 years old at the time, she should have understood.
Then there was a case where a girl in kindergarten had a plastic horse on a string, and she swung around and hit me on the head with it. I remember that moment, I was full of anger. I picked it up and pushed it into the dirt. I got scolded, but she didn’t get anything for hitting me and I had a bump afterwards. And when I complained to my mom, she didn’t take my side either.
This resentment and anger accumulated. Then there were moments at school and at home. Now I am a sick neurotic. My psyche was ruined, and I hate these people. Everyone who didn’t show solidarity with me as a child.
Now I don’t need anyone’s support at all. I just had to think with my own head what triggers you create in a child’s brain.
