Some may think this is silly or strange. Maybe someone will say, “It’s just puberty. But I really need some advice. I won’t tell you my age, because I’m afraid I’ll be turned away.
At this point, for the third day now, I am starting to be afraid of my mom, school, and even my close friends for no reason. I don’t know how it started or why, but I’m afraid to tell my closest people this.
I think I should start at the beginning. I don’t do well with technology, I don’t sew very well and sometimes even now I have my mom do something for me. She sewed the fabric properly and I got the task wrong. I ended up sewing back and I don’t know what to do next, and it’s been two classes and the day I go into it, I’ll have technology. I don’t know why, but I’m terribly afraid to tell my mom about it, I think she’ll start beating me up and telling me I’m talentless.
Today, I wanted to dye my hair, but she said no, saying that I would spoil my hair and blame it all on her. Then I was indignant, saying that my hair was already cut short, but she only replied that it was my fault that I got lice. It wasn’t my fault though, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. After that I cried for about 30 minutes. I don’t know, we had a kind of normal relationship. However, already after she told me to go to bed and left on her own, I started crying again until I decided to search some anonymous forum to share it. I am afraid to tell my friends, loved ones about this because I am afraid of their misunderstanding and dislike for me that may arise.
Yes, I am not the most perfect person, but still I feel like everyone will soon turn their back on me. I’ve stopped feeling in any kind of security because of this. It’s very strange, and stupid.
But all I ask for is support as I can’t calm down. Since even now I cry and want to hide under the blanket like a little baby. Give some advice because I can’t calm down at the moment. Although I am a little relieved that I got to talk to someone.
