I want to leave my life story here as well.
I used to be married, divorced, a year after my daughter was born. The relationship didn’t work out, my husband was much older than me, and ended up not fulfilling any of my dreams.
After my divorce, I met my boyfriend (M), we’ve been dating for three years and are still together. I always wanted a business, my first husband ignored my idea for a year. And he helped make my dream a reality. But while building a business together, we often bumped heads and there were very loud fights between us. I began to realize that I wanted a change. Eventually there was a breakup on my own initiative. And started dating another guy (A). He was financially secure, everything I needed.
I was in love, making plans for my life, but (M) wouldn’t leave me alone. The calls were endless and the knocks on the door. It pushed me away even more. Soon we had s@x with (A) and we weren’t right for each other. Then, in my opinion, we didn’t get along at all. (M) was giving me a hard time and I met him, we had great and sensual s@x. And I ended up in a love triangle. Why did I do this, I ask myself every day.
There was no more intimacy with (A). I needed to end it all as a matter of urgency. We talked. It’s a horrible story, I suffer a lot because of what I did. (A) started texting endlessly, and of course (M) found out the phone number and called me in the evening, saying: “come out.” When I came out, they both stood there and said very insistently, take your pick. And then they fought in the street. I can’t stand fighting, so I didn’t pick one that night.
But in the end, I ended up with my boyfriend, who I cheated on. He feels hurt and resentment, but he says he’s glad I stayed with him. Sometimes he brings up the cheating to me. He and I had a lot of conversations and we came to a real understanding. Now we continue to work together, we have written down all the goals for this year, we have made family plans. Our relationship has strengthened.
My situation is given to me to transform. I can’t turn back time, I can’t change everything, but I can change myself now, work on myself. But I sometimes have the feeling that I remember (A), I sometimes think that maybe I made the wrong choice.
